I want .?

I don't have aboyfriend. I decided to abstain from to be safe. I'm 19 years old. Am I going to be single forever? I just want with someone where there are no feelings of guilt or paranoia afterwards. I've never had that feeling, and i want to know what it feels like to love someone and MAKE LOVE to them. I want to have with the man I'm going to spend the rest of my life with..but I'm obviously not going to find him NOW, at this point in my life. What should I do?I I'm not desperate or anything. I'm always horny (well, like, twice a day). I'm really serious. Please make me feel better =(